Aleesha Edrianna... Part 2

When I woke up from my deep sleep after delivery I still can't believe that I have become a mother. I look at her with love and wonder how does this baby of mine can be in my belly? Masyaallah. She is so perfect, with big round eyes and importantly lots of hair just like mine..haha. Immediately I fell in love with her and decide to name her Aleesha Edrianna; Protected by God.
Aleesha is a blessing from God that reconnect the broken relationship between me and my ex. He came to visit me and within a second he fell in love with Aleesha as well. That evening, I received a devastating news from the doctor that Aleesha need to be placed at NICU due to jaundice and lung infection. I am so heart broken, sad and frustrated.
Next 48 hours I were at home and Aleesha in NICU, alone. I wonder has she drank her milk or is she crying in the middle of the night? But nothing I can do to make her come home as early as possible. As usual on Saturday afternoon, before I went to NICU to visit Aleesha I received a good news that she is getting better and can be discharged. My heart scream with joy and I can't wait to go and fetch her home. Finally my lil princess will be with me. Everyone was happy and excited and can't wait for her to be home. When she arrived, it was the best thing that can happen to everyone.

Aleesha Edrianna... Part 1

When the "stick" showed me 2 lines, I suddenly feel numb. I couldn't believe my eyes that it showed positive result. Mixed feeling arise; happy, confuse and sad as well. Happy that I'm becoming a mother soon; confuse on how to become a good mother and sad of all the arguments.
Quickly went to see a doctor and she confirmed the result that I am pregnant. Can't believe somebody is growing inside me. In a minute I'm already in love with my growing baby in my belly. I call my child "baby".
Being alone and pregnant with a child is hard especially emotionally. Thank god I have a very supportive family and some of my good friends. I never will ever know how to pay back on their kindness. Thank you guys..You are the best. As time goes by, my growing belly is getting bigger and I can't wait for my baby to arrive. Approaching my 7th months, I got to know that I will be having a girl. I am so excited...little dresses, cute hair clips, hair bands... From my baby, it changed to Lil Princess....
You know how people they say that a baby will change your perceptive and thinking, that happened to my ex-husband. Lil princess changed his anger and frustration towards forgiveness, fatherly and love. As for me, I do forgive him for what he has done but I will not forget the sadness and hurt he has caused.
14th November 2010, after my pregnancy has been over due of 8 days I went into OT for delivery. Few minutes before turning midnight, my sweet Lil Princess arrived. First time I heard her scream I felt relieved and happy that God has given me a healthy baby girl. Syukur Alhamdulillah...

Man.. Can't live with them or can't live without them?? Part 2

Feeling of being a married lady is so different. Responsibilities that come with the title is huge. I wonder if I ever be comfortable with it. As time passed by, I thought I have been the best wife that I possibly can imagine but I was wrong. It is still not enough to my husband and obviously it became a problem for both of us. To shorten the story, the fairy tale that I was holding on to never came true. Our marriage came to the end of the road. I was so devastated and hurt. However, as I believe every sad story there is always good that comes with it. I received the best news ever, I was 3 months pregnant. Truthfully I was saddened about my marriage but in the same time, I am happy to start the new role in my life; which is being a mother..

Man.. Can't live with them or can't live without them?? Part 1

Semua budak perempuan masa sekolah mesti akan berangan-angan bila dah besar nanti dapat keja yg bagus, jumpa lelaki yg sayang kita, kawin, dpt anak dan yg best skali, "Happily Ever After". Macam cerita dongeng. Fairy tales..But in reality, we won't get what we always wish for. As for me, I managed to study till Master and along the journey found few good as well as not so good man.

Until 1 fine day, I found the one (At that time I thought he was)...Anyway we fell in love, went thru ups and down together till 1 day we decided to get married. 7th November 2009, the day I became a wife to a husband. Thinking ok, I'm getting what I have aim for. 

Welcome!!

Welcome Amy to your Blogspot.. :D. Yeah, I know I'm so outdated. Before this I don't see a purpose to have a blog on my own. But now..things changed.
I'm looking forward to lot of things in my life..And certainly I would like to share it with everyone I love.